Mwaipungu
JF-Expert Member
- Dec 20, 2011
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Dear Lord, its me again writing down this piece of message to you in hope for your answer. I have lived for the greatest number of seconds and years with sorrow and grief in me. Who am I that deserve this shame? What did I do that did displease you to this extent? Where will I go if this is the life I live? Am I not too patient with u of what is happening? All these questions I have no answers to fill the lacuna in me.
Is my existence by accident or it was planned? And is my suffering the best thing I can live to see? Am not asking for war with you but am seeking answers for my existence. Am I a slave all my life to the predators? Am lost and swept by grief that hunts me like a ghost.
My nights are longer than I can imagine, and my dreams are more scary than death its self. I live on earth but dream of hell, where have I gone wrong? Am I the greatest sinner of all or just a test? What plans do u have for me? My heart is so dark by the grief I hold, and my mind is so evil than anything I can think of.
Am not disappointed in you for this shame of letting Satan take over again but am asking for your help as you have done always. This is hard for me to accept but simple for you to change. Lead me not astray and let me not sin against you and fight for me against my enemies that are ready to kill.
Is my existence by accident or it was planned? And is my suffering the best thing I can live to see? Am not asking for war with you but am seeking answers for my existence. Am I a slave all my life to the predators? Am lost and swept by grief that hunts me like a ghost.
My nights are longer than I can imagine, and my dreams are more scary than death its self. I live on earth but dream of hell, where have I gone wrong? Am I the greatest sinner of all or just a test? What plans do u have for me? My heart is so dark by the grief I hold, and my mind is so evil than anything I can think of.
Am not disappointed in you for this shame of letting Satan take over again but am asking for your help as you have done always. This is hard for me to accept but simple for you to change. Lead me not astray and let me not sin against you and fight for me against my enemies that are ready to kill.
