Addiction is a decision. An individual wants something, whatever that something is, and makes a desicion to get it. Once they have it, they make a decision to take it. If they take it too often, that process of decision making gets out of control, and if it gets far out of control, it becomes an addiction. At that point the decision is a difficult one to make, but it is still a decision. Do I or don't I. Am I going to take or am I not going to waste my life or am I going to say no and try and stay sober and be a decent person. It is a decision. Each and every time. A decision. String enough of those decisions together and you set a course and you set a standard of living. Addict or human. Genetics do not make that call. They are just an excuse. They allow people to say it wasn't my fault I am genetically predisposed. It wasn't my fault I was programmed from day one. It wasn't my fault I didn't have any say in the matter. Bullshit. ---- that bullshit. There is always a decision. Take responsibility for it. Addict or human. It's a ----ing decision. Each and every time.
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James Frey,
A Million Little Pieces
Uteja ni maamuzi. Nafsi huanza kwa kutaka kitu, chaweza kuwa kitu chochote, ndipo uaamuzi wa kukipta hufanyika. Punde wanapokipata , hufanya uamuzi wa kukitumia. Kadri kasi ya utumiaji inapokuwa ya mara kwa mara, mfumo wa kufanya maamuzi hubadilika na kuwa nje ya uwezo wa mtumiaji, hali hii ikiendelea sana, ndipo hugeuka na kuwa uteja. Katika hatua hii maamuzi huwa ni magumu, japo kwa hali zote bado ni maamuzi. Nifanye au nisifanye. Nitatumia, hapana, sitaki kupoteza maisha yangu au hapana mimi ni sio mlevi ni mtu mwenye staha nasema hapana kwa jambo hili. Ni maamuzi kila mara kila watati, ndiyo ni maamuzi! Katika mfululizo wa maamuzi namna hii hatimaye unafikia hitimisho na unaweka kiwango cha namna unavyoishi. Teja au binadamu. Kwa bahati mbaya elimu ya vinasaba haitambui hili, sana sana ni udhuru na visingizio, sio kosa langu nadhani nina udhaifu wa kimaumbile, sio kosa langu hivi ndivyo nilivyoumbwa tangu siku ya kwanza, sio kosa langu sikuwa na uwezo wa kuzuia jambo hili. Upuuzi
.. huu ni upuuzi. Siku zote lazima ufanye maamuzi sahihi. Lazima uwajibike . Teja au binadamu. Ni maamuzi kila mara kila wakati
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James Frey,
A Million Little Pieces
