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Kuna kipindi wakati bado nipo chuo nilibahatika kuingia katika mahusiano na mrembo mmoja aliyenizidi sana umri, wakati huo nilikuwa nina miaka 22, yeye alikuwa ana miaka 38, Aisee nilimpenda sana.
Dada yangu ndo aliyetukutanisha, ilikuwa hv, sister alikuwa na birthday party, just a small gathering, alialika marafiki zake wa kazini na mashoga zake wengine, kiujumla nahic hatukuzidi 15, so mm kama dogo la mwisho kweny familia mzee wa kutumwa tumwa ilibidi nifike mapema eneo la tukio nihakikishe mambo yanaenda sawa ili the boss lady awe na amani.
Bac marafiki zake walipofika sister akanitambulisha kwa marafiki zake, walifurahi sana kuniona, walisema sister ananiongeleaga sana.
Kweny hio party ndo nikakutana na huyo mrembo, alikuwa ni rafiki wa sister wa kazini, hakuwa muongeaji sana, alikuwa mkimya na alionekana kama hana furaha kama wenzake, mara ya kwanza kumuona nilivutiwa nae sana, nilipenda sana sura yake(face ratio) ilivokaa.
Bac nikakusanya ujasiri nikamfata, haikuwa rahic kuongea nae cause aliniona kama namkera but kadri tulivozidi kuongea nikagundua mambo aliyokuwa anapenda nikanzisha topic za hayo mambo nikaanza kuona mood yake inaanza kubadilika akawa mchangamfu.
Bac tukabadilishana namba kwa kisingizio kwamba nataka nijifunze vitu kutoka kwake, it was silly but it worked, tukawa tunachat kawaida tuu siku zikasogea, alikuwa mpenzi sana wa series, bac nilikuwa nampa recommendations kulingana na taste yake, alifurahi sana kukutana na mtu anayemwelewa na anayejua anapenda kitu gani, sio tuu kwenye series but hata kwenye maisha ya kawaida mawazo yetu yalikuwa yanaendana sana, our connection was strong, ilifika kipindi tukazoeana sana tukawa tuna chat kama vile watu tuliozeana kwa muda mrefu, lakini sikusita kumwambia jinsi gani alivyokuwa mrembo na alivonivutia toka siku ya kwanza kweny party, alikuwa anacheka sana nikimwambia, akaanza kidogodogo kunambia mambo yake personal, alikuwa na mtoto mmoja wa kike mdogo na alikuwa ameachana na mme wake.
Nilikuwa namwomba tukutane mara kwa mara, some days alikuwa anakubali, some days alikuwa anakataa, lakini siku alizokubali tukutane tulipiga story sana, kumbe ni muongeaji mzuri tuu mm nilikuwa kazi yangu kusikiliza kwa makini na kuongeza comments zinazofanya mada iwe entertaining, uzuri topic alizokuwa anaongelea nilikuwa familiar nazo kwaio alikuwa ana enjoy sana kuongea na mm, I was very supportive to her, akihuzunika nahuzunika nae akifurahi nafurahi nae, alinambia kwann kaachana na mme wake, mme wake was abusive to her alikuwa anampiga, akaona isiwe kesi wakaachana, tuli bond sana na sikuwa na woga wa kumshika, I broke the touch-barrier very confidently hadi alishangaa, mwanzoni nilikuwa nikimshika kiuno alikuwa anaondoa mkono wangu but badae akazoea akawa ananiacha tuu. Nikijaribu kum-kiss she showed no resistance so I guess we were kinda dating but nikimuuliza "are we dating" alikuwa anajibu "No" but haikunisumbua because being close to her mattered to me the most, I loved her very much, alikuwa ana macho mazuri mno.
Sasa kuna siku alinambia amenunua TV kubwa na alikuwa ana mpango wa kuiweka ukutani sema fundi wake anayemtumiaga amesafiri, nikamwambia sawa haina shida ntakuja kukuekea, nilikuwa nina experience na hio activity kwaio haikuwa na shida, nilipofika home kwake nikachukua vile vifaa vya kuekea TV ukutani vilivokuwa kweny boksi lake, nikatoa instruction manual nikaisoma nikajua kila kitu kinachotakiwa kufanyika, bac nikadrill pale ukutani tukasaidiana kuiweka TV ikakaa fresh.
Tulivomaliza pale sikupoteza muda hata kidogo I tried to seduce her to sleep with me but akakataa akanambia hawez kufanya ivo wakati mtoto wake yupo pale home, bac pale nikawa nimehuzunika ila najifanya kama nimepotezea but she knew me, akanambia usijali weekend nitampeleka mtoto akamsalimie baba ake maana kila siku ananisumbua anataka amwone baba ake, unaweza kuja, mi mwenyew nina muda sasa sijakutana na mwanaume, nikamwambia "Sawa haina shida nimekuelewa" tukaachana na hayo mambo tukaendelea na mambo mengine, aisee nilivorudi chuo siku zikawa haziendi nilikuwa naona weekend haifiki.
Hatimaye weekend ikafika, tuli enjoy sana ile weekend tulikuwa hatuna distractions, it felt like heaven...just imagine, some men will kill just to hold the hand of a woman he loves but I got the chance to sleep with the woman of my dreams. She made me feel alive.
Tuliendelea na yale mahusiano but it didn't last long yalidumu kama 4months hv, kuna siku akaniita akanambia "It was nice but it needs to end" niliumia sana aisee, nikamuuliza kwann akaniambia "haya mahusiano hayana faida kwako, yatakuumiza tuu bado una umri mdogo huja experience life kama mm" nikamwambia "nikiwa na ww sihitaji hizo experience, when im with you im happy" alichonijibu hadi leo nikikumbuka naumia sana alisema "No unajidanganya we bado mdogo sana hujui mapenzi ni nn, mi mwenzako miaka miwili ijayo natimiza miaka 40 bado miaka mitano tuu niingie menopause vp unataka Unioe na uzee wote huu?" Nikamwambia "Ndio umri si kitu kwangu" akacheka then akasema "we bado hujakua vizur hujui mambo mengi ndo kwanza una 22 hujui hata unataka nn maishani, bado hujajitambua, this needs to end na sio kwa ubaya nakuonea huruma unapoteza muda wako kwangu, mm jua kwangu lishazama ww ndo kwanza linachomoza you have bright future ahead of you, tumetofautiana miaka 16 mingi sana naweza hata kukuzaa tafuta girls wa umri wako" aisee niliinama chini tuu sikuwa na nguvu hata ya kumwangalia, I loved her as much as man can love a woman, nilihisi moyo utapasuka but sikutoa chozi, aliendelea kusema "I like you very much but for your sake bora iwe hivi ili usije kuumia zaidi"
Niliondoka pale nikarudi chuo nikapanda kitandani, ule usiku usingizi ulikuwa hauji kabisa kila nikimuwaza machozi yanatiririka nilijaribu kumchukia lakini wapi nilizidi kumpenda zaidi, baada ya muda kidogo alikata mawasiliano na mm.
Dada yangu hadi leo hajawahi kujua nilikuwa kweny mahusiano na mmoja wa marafiki zake.
Nilikuwa namuwaza sana hadi kuna kipindi nikawa namuota.
ASIKUDANGANYE MTU, OLD IS GOLD.
I love older women, wana qualities nyingi zinazonivutia, sio kwamba sipendi girls of my age but I find older women fascinating.
Kama ulishawahi kuwa na mahusiano na mwanamke aliyekuzidi umri toa comment hapo chini na tuelezee ilikuaje??