Utopolo...!Hey guys..!
Huwa napenda kuja hapa na uchiinga' wa hapa na pale, ila naombeni Leo niwe serious kidogo, hii ni issue ya kweli kabisa ya maisha yangu..!!
Sijui kwanini nataka kushare kama ni ushauri nitaupokea, ila kama kuna la kujifunza mtu aweza lichukua pia likamsaidia..
Mimi ni kati ya watu wachache waliobahatika kulelewa na 'baba mlezi' kwa ule upendo ambao lije jua, ije mvua I am 100% sure siwezi upata popote pale, I hate to call it Him baba mlezi, ila huo ndiyo ukhalisia..!!
Na bahati nzuri nilipewa bahati ya kujua ukweli nikiwa mdogo, Baba hakupenda hili jambo lakini kama ningekuja kujua sasa nadhani ningedata kabisa kujua Huyu Mwanaume anayenipenda kuliko chochote kuwa He is not My Real Father...!
Nakumbuka nikiwa mdogo kabisa, nilikuwa natazama photo album ya Mama ya zamani, Nika point picha mojawapo ya mkaka ambaye alikuwa ananifanania sana sana, nikamuambia 'Mama, bila shaka huyu ndiye Fulani' (hapa nilimtaja baba mzazi kwa jina lake)..
Mama alicheka akauliza umejuaje.?? Nikamuambia nimeona tu tunavyofanana, akaniambia ni kweli ni yeye..! Hilo likaishia hapo na ni sura ya ujanani kabisa, hivyo nikabaki na wazo tu kuwa Me and that man we real look alike, maisha yakaendelea hivyo..!!
Baba mlezi ndiye Baba ambaye nimekua nikijua huyu ndiye dunia yangu, He is so proud ov Me na hivi tuko na lighting color wote, hivyo nikitembea naye natambulishwa almost everywhere like she is my first daughter, na watu wakiona hiyo rangi angavu wanajua kabisa ndiyo ni kweli na husema kabisa mmefanana hasa..!
Katika wanaume I can admit wameni spoil ni this Man, na ukubwa wangu huu imagine that man bado ananiita 'my happiness' 'totoo', 'my everything'..! ana watoto wengine wa kike kwa kiume lakini the whole family inajua kipenzi cha Baba ni nani..!
Katika watu naogopa kuumiza maishani mwangu ni huyu mwanaume, Imagine, alinambia 'binti yangu, usije kuniaibisha', hayo maneno huwa natembea nayo chochote nachofanya nawaza nisije m-dissapoint yule mwanaume, japo ni muda mrefu ila huwa yanaishi moyoni mwangu daima..!!
Baada ya yote hayo, nikiwa binti mkubwa kabisa mwaka Jana mwishoni, napokea simu ya mtu anajitambulisha kuwa Mimi ni mwanae, kwanza I was shocked sababu najua baba yangu nilishapiga naye story mchana, mpaka aliponitajia jina ndiyo nikaelewa..!!
Nikajikuta nalia machozi, sijui ni kwanini nililia vile, anyways, nilizungumza naye kwa nidhamu na utulivu mkubwa nikawa namsikiliza, akaniambia anaomba sana samahani kwa kuniacha miaka yote hiyo, na alikuwa akinitafuta sana bila mafanikio ila hivi sasa ndiyo kafanikiwa kunipata..!
Anaomba sana samahani, kwa kuniacha, kutokuwa pale kwa ajili yangu na pia kwa kumuumiza Mama, na kinachomuuma hakufanikiwa kupata mtoto wa kike huko alikokwenda Mimi ndiyo bintiye wa pekee, kapata watoto wa kiume woote..!!
Huruma ni kweli alikuwa anatia me nikamuambia Mimi sina tatizi lolote na wewe, ila kwa jinsi ulivyomuumiza yule Mama sijui ni kitu gani utafanya mpaka tu akuelewe na kukusamehe maneno uliyomtamkia na jinsi ulivyomuacha Mimi nikiwa tumboni na nikuambie tu ukweli hajawahi kusahau..!
Akawa anataka tuonane japo anione tu, nikamuambia ongea kwanza na Mama, ndiyo naweza nikakuona japo kwa sehemu tulizokuwepo tulikuwa jirani kiasi ila sikuweza tu kwenda kumuona bila ruhusa, na pia sikutaka kabisa kumshirikisha hili Baba nilihisi tu kama atajiskia vibaya, sijui ni kwanini nilifikiri hivyo, kama nilivyosema mwanzo sikutaka nimfanye ajiskie vibaya kwa ajili yangu kwa namna yoyote ile,
Mpaka Leo sikuwahi muambia Baba yangu chochote na yeye hakuwahi niuliza chochote japo Mama alishamuambia kuwa baba mzazi kanitafuta, Nadhani anasubiri kama nitamuambia chochote ila Mimi siwezi muambia kitu kiukweli..!!
Japo kiukweli niliwahi enda kumuona baba mzazi, I was just curious kumuona na ni kitu nilikuwa natamani sana, I can admit he is very charming person kama Mimi anapenda kufurahi mno pia.! Ila nimekaa naye na kuongea naye it's like talking to a stranger, ana maisha yake tu anajiweza lakini Ile furaha hupata nikiwa na Baba yangu mlezi it was never there.! tulifanikiwa kuongea mengi na kupiga story na akawa anajutia sana lakini on my side nilimuambia ni sawa tu nilishamsamehe..!
Tatizo linaanzia wapi, sahii analalamika anataka ule ukaribu na bond ya Baba na Mwanae, anahisi namtenga, anahisi sijamsamehe, lakini sina tatizo naye ni kuwa almost every day the only Man that came into my mind ni Baba Mlezi, the only Man niwe na siku nzuri ama mbaya lazima nimuambie na ni lazima anitafute ama nimtafute, na ukubwa huu lakini ni kawaida kuona 'Imethibitishwa' zake kwa simu yangu, huwa ananitreat bado kama vile Mimi ni kabinti kadogo, mpaka niliwahi muambia nikija olewa nitahakikisha naolewa na mwanaume anayenipenda at least nusu ya upendo wako, akacheka akaniambia tu Muombe Mungu sana na ulivyo tu huyo mwanaume kazi atakuwa nayo, nikamuambia wewe ndiyo umeniharibu lakini, akatabasamu akajibu, ipo siku nitakuja kuelewa..!
Kabla nisahau, Mama hataki ushirika naye kabisa anasema Baba anayemtambua yeye ni Baba Mlezi tu, japo yeye pia alimuambia ashamsamehe hivyo asijali aendelee na maisha yake kwa amani, Naomba nikazie hapa My Ma hajawahi nizuia Mimi kuwasiliana wala kumuona Baba sababu ni yeye ndiye alipambana nitumie jina la Baba mzazi alisema hataki nipoteze haki ya kumjua baba mzazi pia, na alikuwa anaimani sana kuwa ipo siku baba yako mzazi atarudi tu na utamuona, na kweli yakatimia..!!
tukirudi huku kwa baba mzazi, analalamika mpaka namuonea huruma lakini sipati ile feeling ya ubaba juu yake what am I supposed to do.? Na huwa ananitumia pesa za hapa na pale ananiambia vocha namuambia tu ahsante, hata ile kuita 'Baba' naona ugumu, me huwa naishi zangu kama vile he doesn't exist, nikikumbuka ni mara moja namjulia hali mpaka nikumbuke tena siyo Leo, most of the time yeye ndiye hunitafuta na malalamiko juu anahisi nafanya kusudi kumkomoa lakini hapana, moyo wangu unaishi huku kwingine toka utotoni..! anataka nikawajue ndugu zake lakini I don't feel like I do belong there, kawapa ndugu zake namba wananitafuta lakini siwafurahii all the same pia, na kumsamehe nishamsamehe lakini the bond ain't there, na malalamiko yake yananiumiza lakini nimeshindwa yafanyia kazi..!!
Nashindwa hata nimfanye nini maskiini..!!
Busara kidogo inahitajika katika hili
Utopolo...!
Ryan Holiday
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WOW
You have made my day.
It is very rare to read a wonderful and fantastic comments like this in a JF.
Nice counselling
Love of God be with you mate.
Good Day.
Jenchede
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Pole sanaa lakini kikubwa shukuru Mungu umepata upendo wa baba mlezi. Hakuna kitu kinachompa mtoto ujasiri,,,akili nk. Kama upendo. Bond ya familia inatokana na upendo na si vingine.
Hata kwenye familia ya baba na mama watoto wengi wanawapenda mama ,,sababu ya bond muda mwingi mama anakuwa na watoto,,,atawajulia hali atawapikia chakula,,,lkn utakuta wababa wengi wapo busy na kutafuta hela. Shule anaenda mama,,mambo madogo madogo ndo yanaleta bond. Mwisho wa siku wanakuja jilaumu na kusingizia kuwa mama anawalisha sumu. Kama mtoto ulimwonyesha upendo toka mdogo amekua anauona na kuuishi hata mama amlishe sumu kiasi gani. Upendo utaishi moyoni mwa mtoto. Tofauti na hapo ni lawama zisizo na msingi.
Hata kwenye familia ya baba na mama watoto wengi wanawapenda mama ,,sababu ya bond muda mwingi mama anakuwa na watoto,,,atawajulia hali atawapikia chakula,,,lkn utakuta wababa wengi wapo busy na kutafuta hela. Shule anaenda mama,,mambo madogo madogo ndo yanaleta bond. Mwisho wa siku wanakuja jilaumu na kusingizia kuwa mama anawalisha sumu. Kama mtoto ulimwonyesha upendo toka mdogo amekua anauona na kuuishi hata mama amlishe sumu kiasi gani. Upendo utaishi moyoni mwa mtoto. Tofauti na hapo ni lawama zisizo na msingi.
Countrywide
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Wapi tena? But please forgive and forget. I have also forgiven so many people who have wronged me here. Forgive, let go and move on.
Let's concentrate on your issue, I really need to talk to u privately. U really need someone special, caring and my words of encouragement will help u
Superb2014
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Umetoa ushauri mzuri.
Nkundwe Sr
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Anatema kimerikia haaaaah aliyegundua kinywaji apewe [emoji109]
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Kapeace
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Na hapo anaumia sana kuona baba mlezi anapendwa na kuthaminiwa
Kapeace
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Sasa kinachofanya umtafute akiwa kashakua mkubwa ni nini?
Ukishikilia kukana mkane hadi kufa kwako
NAMBA MOJA AJAYE NCHINI
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Nilikuja kujua badae nimekausha Hadi leo!!japo anateseka Sana KWA taarifa ;!wameshaachana na jamaa ni teja hana makazi maalumu anatelekeza watoto hawana hats chakula!!nilishindwa cha kufanya na mama mtu watoto walitoroshwa hawajulikani walipo!!
Kapeace
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Hata story yako na hii hazifanani
longi mapexa
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Kuna wangu namsubiria nafikiri itakua vita ya tatu ya dunia.
Kelsea
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Hahaa...mshua au
longi mapexa
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Yah Nafahamu atakuja lakini kitakachompata....Hatakaa asahau haki ya kweli.
Kelsea
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Aisee pole sana....binafsi nilibahatika kulelewa na wazazi wote wawili lakini naweza kuimagine ni kiasi gani inaumiza mshua wako yupo ila kauchuna, inahuzunisha sana.
longi mapexa
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Uzuri fainali ni uzeeni...Ni lazima apatiwe nafasi ya kujutia ujana wake.
General8
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Kama hukuzaliwa mazingira hayo huwezi kijua, waswahili wanasema anayekulisha ndo anayekumiliki, why do you respect your parents Kama unao, simply because they you came in this world through them, their responsibility was to feed, raise you and take care of you: kukulisha , kukutunza na kukulea ndo utimilifu wa uzazi wao kwako: Haijalishi what happened between baba na huyo binti, lakin absence ya biological father Kwa huyu binti, it disqualifies him automatically as a father: period:
whiterose
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Naona wewe,mama yako na babako mzazi mnamuandalia huyo baba mlezi maumivu yakumtosha na majuto juu.
Endeleeni muda utaongea.
Mnawasiliana naye wa nini sasa?
Mmekosa nini kwa huyo baba mlezi aliyejitoa kwa ajili yenu?
Inashangaza sana na ndio maana singo maza hawaaminiki kabisa huyo mamaako ajiangalie sana angekuwa anathamini upendo wa mume wake angekupiga stop kuwasiliana na huyo wakuitwa baba mzazi kudumisha amani nyumbani kwenu msimuone huyo mlezi wenu mjinga anausoma mchezo
UR VERY LUCKY!! Hongera kwa kupata malezi ya baba japo sio baba mzazi. Mimi hapa nimeanza kuishi na baba mzazi nikiwa form one kiukweli paka leo I don’t feel km nina baba yaani ni 0 bond btn Us, sometime tunakaa hata mwaka mzima bila kuonana wala simu mi nahisi labda anasubiri akizeeka hajiwezi ndo aanze kunitafuta.
Please usimuumize huyo baba bora, how I wish yani hayo mapenzi ningeyapata mimi.
All the best dear
Please usimuumize huyo baba bora, how I wish yani hayo mapenzi ningeyapata mimi.
All the best dear
Humanity comes first
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I heart your contribution
Bila shaka hicho kichwa chako ni madini.